2008 has been a very educational year. I learned a lot.
About myself. People. About production.
I dare say that I came out with more realisations and lessons than I did when I started a year ago. And it did not seem like a year. It was like a full decade.
I notice that helping people is NOT a good thing. Especially if it came at the expense of myself.
People tend to take advantage of you, and for the sake of their own egos, they will sacrifice you to an ego-God or a talking snake or whatever. Or worse, to some of their stupid, retarded friends.
No point in trying to help, or even to talk to those people. Or even to waste time thinking about them. They're fuckers and they should all die.
They can all FUCK OFF AND DIE.
When I was down, where were they? I remember I was admitted into the hospital three times in my life. And all that time, I was alone.
No complaints, though. When I die, I WANT to be alone. I want to be alone right now. That's why I didn't go out and shit. Plus, my bloody cough.
I have decided that 2009 will be all about me and how great I am. As in, what's in it for me? I should learn from the prostitutes. Money first. And unlike the hookers, I'm only going to do things that give ME pleasure. I will not think about other people anymore. I will not put people first.
This is the death of Tetsuwan Atom. The twilight of the superheroes.
It's ME first. And if you can't catch up, well, sucks to be you.