I'm feeling the strain.
Been going out full-throttle on all fronts for the past six months. I am beginning to snap at people and losing my cool at whatever stupid thing I see. Even though there will always be stupid, meaningless things everywhere, all the time.
It's that time of the year, when I feel burnt out. Already scheduled a vacation soon. But can I survive these next few weeks?
My health has taken a back seat to chasing after stuff. I was already running four projects and two companies. Today, I started another initiative. All the while doing my taxes on all fronts, like a good adult.
The strain is real. But work doesn't kill you. Stress does. A doctor told me this. So it must be true.
When I work, it's like there is only one thing that exists and it is the goal, the objective. All else fades away as I allow the intensity to consume me.
I am well-suited to games that require min-maxing, but after a while, I'd grow tired. Spent. I treat life the same way. You go all out or you go to hell.
I guess it's time to shift into lower gear and cruise for a bit. I won't survive another six months of this. Some things will have to change.
