I woke up this morning reading social media on calls for a boycott of Chinese businesses and Chinese goods.
Read here, here and here.
This call was started by dunno who and is now being promoted by pro-BN bloggers. Buy Malay first, Buy Chinese last.
This is the kind of stupidity that will get BN and UMNO to lose everything.
First of all, this thing is blatantly, overtly racist. Talk about reconciliation? Fuck you, man. You're driving the wedge even further apart.
How can anyone, in any good conscience, say this is acceptable?
I understand, the Chinese voted overwhelmingly for the Opposition in GE13. So? Free country, mah. Ko marah apasal? The fact that some took BN's money and then didn't vote for them - so? Sue them la, in the court of law.
I believe BN's pride was hurt cause they got conned. Ha-haa! Well, you used to con people, now when people con you, it's a travesty?
Ko letak ramai conmen dalam Gomen, lepas tu marah bila ko kena con? Ko bodoh ke beruk?
You remind me of fuckers who criticise other people's work, but when people criticise theirs, they go ballistic Fucking whiners.
Yes, everyone can vote with their money, but this is too much. Too blatant. Too stupid.
If a race riot happens, the Malays will be blamed because of these racist rhetoric. The racist Chinese (quite a few) hide their racism well. Learn from them at least, you stupid fucking monkeys.
Plus, the Chinese have all the money. While dumb-ass BN kept the Malays working RM2,500 jobs, telling them to bersyukur with five kids, the Chinese breed less, spend less and invest more.
Yes, the Malay buying power is awesome, but that leaves Malays with little to no cash. What the fuck, man?
You dug this hole for over 50 years, Barisan Nasional. Now you complain you're in a hole. Fuck you. I've been telling you for years. Did you listen? Noooo. So fuck you.
I am not joining this boycott as I consider it as ridiculous as boycotting Jewish products or pro-Israel companies.
I will also NOT go the pathetic Malay apologist route and buy stuff from Chinese shops because I feel guilty or don't want to be seen as racist.
I will buy things based on my needs and my funds, logistics and whether I like your face.
There are as many Malay conmen as Chinese conmen. I don't do business with conmen. If you're a conman, I don't give a shit what race you are. To me, you are an animal.
Wednesday, May 22, 2013
The Greatest Mind of the 21st Century
Today, I met with four people while in a foul mood.
Starting smoking again after being disappointed with e-cigarette vendors have left me coughing and I lost my voice. As a voracious communicator and loquacious talker, I find this experience annoying. Since most Malaysians don't listen, it is definitely harder to communicate.
The Malaysian way of communicating is shouting and yelling louder and louder until they go deaf with their own message, their own words, their own voice. It is an extremely childish mannerism as Malaysians are trapped in a very childish culture.
I compare this to European culture and Thai culture which really offers more finesse in their communication. And yes, given enough funds and opportunity, I would migrate in an instant.
One of the four I spoke today said she felt after the election, Malaysia has become a more vicious, desperate and colder place. I agree with her. This country is growing up, and with it will come lots and lots of pain and lessons.
Dr M said it in his last interviews - as printed in The Star - that while he has managed to build an amazing infrastructure and systems for the country, his only regret is that he has failed to improve or even change the Malaysian mindset.
I believe that for the over 50 years, the Malaysian Government has kept most Malaysians mostly stupid so the populace would be easier to control. You wanna talk about realpolitik? This IS realpolitik, where the end justifies the means.
One only has to look at the kind of bullshit our leaders have forced us to believe over the decades to see that they believe all the people of Malaysia to be retards, idiots and buffoons.
"Kalau hari-hari hujan siapa salah? Tuhan salah! (Bukan saya atau syarikat kakak ipar saya salah! Kami tak makan duit haram! Ayoyo!)" - Datuk Seri Dr S Samy Vellu.
"Kalau tino comey takyoh kejo. (If you are a beautiful female animal, you don't have to work. Just suck your husband''s dick at home, biatch! *Pimp Stride*)" - Datuk Nik Aziz
"Saya ada berkotak-kotak bukti rasuah! Saya akan dedahkan semua!" - Datuk Seri Anwar Ibrahim, 1998.
"Kepala Siapa Botak? Bini Mahathir!" - Ceramah Reformasi, 1998. Attributed to Anwar.
"Orang tu sama tak macam saya? Perut dia buncit tak?" - Anwar Ibrahim to reporters, before coming up with the beer belly defence.
"Kalau tak suka dengan sistem negara ini, bolehlah berhijrah ke negara lain." - Zahid Hamidi
"Kalah GE13, salah siapa, nyah?" Her Majesty the Queen Azmin Ali
"Mereka nak serang saya!" - Sharizat.
"Why Cookie Rocket? Uh uh uh aaah aaah aaaaahh!" - KJ, outside the US Embassy for some dumbass monkey protest whatever.
"Ka-kaa! Woo hoo hoo!" - Mat Sabu
Our leaders take advantage of our easily-duped nature. They are working on the same concept of conmen in this country - preying on our gullibility. They should be selling e-cigarettes. Or 'ubat kuat'.
If you want to go partisan, I blame BN for keeping people stupid and gullible, to allow PR to take advantage of them. It has certainly backfired for BN.
When PR takes over, all of you who had worries before should calm the fuck down. Nothing will change. From what I can see, there would still be enough corruption to keep the country going - perhaps more so. And all of us who did not benefit from the BN corruption can buy a lottery ticket and bank on the PR Government's corruption starting 2018.
So yes, the country has become a colder, edgier place. I feel like Alan Moore when he contemplated migrating as he wrote V for Vendetta.
Countless times, every day, I get approached by people with their bullshit and they expect me to swallow it, when I assure you I can see through cons a mile away. Why do conmen like to try and fool me? Because I am the Greatest Mind of the 21st Century. These idiots are insecure about their intelligence, as they know deep inside their hearts they are idiots. Their thinking is, if they can get me to believe in their lies, they would be smarter, higher, better.
Our country and its countrymen are still growing, so I let most of this slide.
I mean, most Gen Y talk like this - "Mak ittew ckp, ittew tomei (Our cunt of a mother told us we're cutie-pies)". It is a clear sign that our people are fixated to becoming infantile degenerate monkeys. Then, according to Freud, this means they are at an anal-fixation stage, hence the 'geniuses' in BN believe selling Anwar's buttfucfking story over and over again will placate the masses.
So even though we live in a meaner Malaysia, these are interesting times. The people demand better stories. So far, I see none in BN can spin anything plausible or even feasible. They are too stuck in the old thinking, believing something that worked for 50++ years will continue to work for another 50 million years. BN people are delusional.
Meanwhile, PR right now is all shout and no action. I hope they come up with something - anything. Just demonising BN is wasted effort - that's done already. WE KNOW BN IS CORRUPTED. Now what are we going to do once they are out of the picture? Don't give me abstract concepts and sweeping bullshit like 'we will eradicate corruption!' 'We will develop Malaysia!'. Hey, stupid, a five year old can say that. Tell me HOW.
I don't work on wishy-washy bullshit, and even though some see me as an impulsive risk-taker, I am extremely conservative and would not venture into anything blind, like how I don't believe in simply taking the MyCreative funding thing as there are too many variables that CANNOT be ascertained until it is too far into the game.
Do not take me for some conjurer of cheap tricks, and do not take the Malaysian public as fools either.
Starting smoking again after being disappointed with e-cigarette vendors have left me coughing and I lost my voice. As a voracious communicator and loquacious talker, I find this experience annoying. Since most Malaysians don't listen, it is definitely harder to communicate.
The Malaysian way of communicating is shouting and yelling louder and louder until they go deaf with their own message, their own words, their own voice. It is an extremely childish mannerism as Malaysians are trapped in a very childish culture.
I compare this to European culture and Thai culture which really offers more finesse in their communication. And yes, given enough funds and opportunity, I would migrate in an instant.
One of the four I spoke today said she felt after the election, Malaysia has become a more vicious, desperate and colder place. I agree with her. This country is growing up, and with it will come lots and lots of pain and lessons.
Dr M said it in his last interviews - as printed in The Star - that while he has managed to build an amazing infrastructure and systems for the country, his only regret is that he has failed to improve or even change the Malaysian mindset.
I believe that for the over 50 years, the Malaysian Government has kept most Malaysians mostly stupid so the populace would be easier to control. You wanna talk about realpolitik? This IS realpolitik, where the end justifies the means.
One only has to look at the kind of bullshit our leaders have forced us to believe over the decades to see that they believe all the people of Malaysia to be retards, idiots and buffoons.
"Kalau hari-hari hujan siapa salah? Tuhan salah! (Bukan saya atau syarikat kakak ipar saya salah! Kami tak makan duit haram! Ayoyo!)" - Datuk Seri Dr S Samy Vellu.
"Kalau tino comey takyoh kejo. (If you are a beautiful female animal, you don't have to work. Just suck your husband''s dick at home, biatch! *Pimp Stride*)" - Datuk Nik Aziz
"Saya ada berkotak-kotak bukti rasuah! Saya akan dedahkan semua!" - Datuk Seri Anwar Ibrahim, 1998.
"Kepala Siapa Botak? Bini Mahathir!" - Ceramah Reformasi, 1998. Attributed to Anwar.
"Orang tu sama tak macam saya? Perut dia buncit tak?" - Anwar Ibrahim to reporters, before coming up with the beer belly defence.
"Kalau tak suka dengan sistem negara ini, bolehlah berhijrah ke negara lain." - Zahid Hamidi
"Kalah GE13, salah siapa, nyah?" Her Majesty the Queen Azmin Ali
"Mereka nak serang saya!" - Sharizat.
"Why Cookie Rocket? Uh uh uh aaah aaah aaaaahh!" - KJ, outside the US Embassy for some dumbass monkey protest whatever.
"Ka-kaa! Woo hoo hoo!" - Mat Sabu
Our leaders take advantage of our easily-duped nature. They are working on the same concept of conmen in this country - preying on our gullibility. They should be selling e-cigarettes. Or 'ubat kuat'.
If you want to go partisan, I blame BN for keeping people stupid and gullible, to allow PR to take advantage of them. It has certainly backfired for BN.
When PR takes over, all of you who had worries before should calm the fuck down. Nothing will change. From what I can see, there would still be enough corruption to keep the country going - perhaps more so. And all of us who did not benefit from the BN corruption can buy a lottery ticket and bank on the PR Government's corruption starting 2018.
So yes, the country has become a colder, edgier place. I feel like Alan Moore when he contemplated migrating as he wrote V for Vendetta.
Countless times, every day, I get approached by people with their bullshit and they expect me to swallow it, when I assure you I can see through cons a mile away. Why do conmen like to try and fool me? Because I am the Greatest Mind of the 21st Century. These idiots are insecure about their intelligence, as they know deep inside their hearts they are idiots. Their thinking is, if they can get me to believe in their lies, they would be smarter, higher, better.
Our country and its countrymen are still growing, so I let most of this slide.
I mean, most Gen Y talk like this - "Mak ittew ckp, ittew tomei (Our cunt of a mother told us we're cutie-pies)". It is a clear sign that our people are fixated to becoming infantile degenerate monkeys. Then, according to Freud, this means they are at an anal-fixation stage, hence the 'geniuses' in BN believe selling Anwar's buttfucfking story over and over again will placate the masses.
So even though we live in a meaner Malaysia, these are interesting times. The people demand better stories. So far, I see none in BN can spin anything plausible or even feasible. They are too stuck in the old thinking, believing something that worked for 50++ years will continue to work for another 50 million years. BN people are delusional.
Meanwhile, PR right now is all shout and no action. I hope they come up with something - anything. Just demonising BN is wasted effort - that's done already. WE KNOW BN IS CORRUPTED. Now what are we going to do once they are out of the picture? Don't give me abstract concepts and sweeping bullshit like 'we will eradicate corruption!' 'We will develop Malaysia!'. Hey, stupid, a five year old can say that. Tell me HOW.
I don't work on wishy-washy bullshit, and even though some see me as an impulsive risk-taker, I am extremely conservative and would not venture into anything blind, like how I don't believe in simply taking the MyCreative funding thing as there are too many variables that CANNOT be ascertained until it is too far into the game.
Do not take me for some conjurer of cheap tricks, and do not take the Malaysian public as fools either.
Tuesday, May 21, 2013
MyCreative and My Creative Freedom
I heard rumours that My Creative was a venture capitalist company with 200 million ringgit worth of funds to invest in creative projects. For equity share and the IP as collateral, you get funds to do your creative projects.
However, after a meeting with them yesterday, I don't think I will be taking any MyCreative funds. It might be great for some people, but it's not for me.
They're working more as a bank to give out loans to creative projects rather than an out-and-out VC company. While I understand their motivations - profit - and I do not disagree with it, I always refuse to take any offer that has changed from its initial rumours/details.
Hearing MyCreative as a magic VC company had my expectations up, but I also have to deal with the harsh realities and real possibilities of businesses failing. As I'm not in this alone, I also refuse to drag one of my best friends and his entire family down a financial hellhole, should the business fail to turn a profit or even recover the money in 3 years' time.
Considering the fact that the interest rates and loan repayment scheme will only be made visible AFTER the pitch, I have no way of knowing whether or not it would be feasible and whether any of my intended failsafes should we run into problems would be viable. Too many fuzzy details and too many variablesI am not sure of, so it's a no-go.
I will be contacting them during office hours this morning to tell them I won't be taking the project further with them.
The good thing that has come out of this is - I now have a 75% completed business plan to set up a comic book company. In my rudimentary calculations, I believe the business can be made profitable after 3-5 years, IF comics gets good reception in Malaysia and/or I manage to take the content beyond these shores and beyond the initial platform of print.
I'll be looking for some angel or even demon investors, maybe have a look at Kickstarter or Mystartr for crowd-sourcing the funds I would need. There is also the BSN loan.
One thing's for sure - I won't take unnecessary risks and endanger the financial well-being of people I know. Not even to further my dreams of doing something for comics.
However, after a meeting with them yesterday, I don't think I will be taking any MyCreative funds. It might be great for some people, but it's not for me.
They're working more as a bank to give out loans to creative projects rather than an out-and-out VC company. While I understand their motivations - profit - and I do not disagree with it, I always refuse to take any offer that has changed from its initial rumours/details.
Hearing MyCreative as a magic VC company had my expectations up, but I also have to deal with the harsh realities and real possibilities of businesses failing. As I'm not in this alone, I also refuse to drag one of my best friends and his entire family down a financial hellhole, should the business fail to turn a profit or even recover the money in 3 years' time.
Considering the fact that the interest rates and loan repayment scheme will only be made visible AFTER the pitch, I have no way of knowing whether or not it would be feasible and whether any of my intended failsafes should we run into problems would be viable. Too many fuzzy details and too many variablesI am not sure of, so it's a no-go.
I will be contacting them during office hours this morning to tell them I won't be taking the project further with them.
The good thing that has come out of this is - I now have a 75% completed business plan to set up a comic book company. In my rudimentary calculations, I believe the business can be made profitable after 3-5 years, IF comics gets good reception in Malaysia and/or I manage to take the content beyond these shores and beyond the initial platform of print.
I'll be looking for some angel or even demon investors, maybe have a look at Kickstarter or Mystartr for crowd-sourcing the funds I would need. There is also the BSN loan.
One thing's for sure - I won't take unnecessary risks and endanger the financial well-being of people I know. Not even to further my dreams of doing something for comics.
Monday, May 20, 2013
Pengembaraan E Cigarette/Vapor Yang Pukimak
Beberapa bulan lepas, aku bercita-cita nak berenti hisap rokok, jadi aku pun membeli set e-cigarette/vapor kedua aku.
Pada mulanya, aku berhenti hisap rokok secara sempurna dan beralih ke e-cigarette. Tetapi, oleh sebab sikap dan cara e-cigarette ini dikendalikan oleh pengedarnya, aku membuat keputusan untuk menghisap rokok kembali dan memusnahkan set e-cigarette aku selepas bekalan cecairnya habis.
Mula-mula sekali, mungkin sebab e-cigarette sebenarnya haram digunakan, tempat-tempat mendapatkan bekalan e-cigarette semuanya kat tempat jin bertendang.
Perlu diingat, e-cigarette ini perlu sentiasa diganti spare partnya. Kalau tidak, jahanam.
Selepas itu, yang paling teruk, berlaku keadaan 'kekurangan bekalan' yang aku percaya dibuat-buat oleh penjual dan pengedar e-cigarette. Secara tiba-tiba, mereka tidak menjual bekalan spare part yang beberapa minggu sebelum itu berlambak.
Semua mengambil keputusan, contohnya, untuk tidak menjual spare part ViViNova atau VCore - jenama tank. Ini akan memaksa pengguna membeli tank baru. Aku berani jamin, dalam masa dua-tiga minggu lagi, mereka akan beralih ke benda lain pula, untuk memaksa pengguna membeli daripada mereka lagi.
Aku dah membajetkan RM250 sebulan untuk liquid dan spare part yang berupa atomiser, biasanya. Nampaknya, mereka hauskan lebih banyak duit aku. Diorang nak semua.
Hampir setiap pekedai aku jumpa di Uptown Kota Damansara pernah menipu atau cuba menipu aku, kecuali satu kedai. Maaf, aku takkan ke Uptown Kota Damansara lagi seumur hidup aku. Dia buat-buat bodoh, jual aku spare part takileh pakai, jual tank yang dah short circuit, cuba sumbat bateri yang tak muat, bateri yang nak meletup, cuba jual dua kali ganda harga, jatuhkan tank aku supaya jahanam dan harapnya aku beli tank baru, cuba 'repair' tank tapi sebenarnya rosakkan, cuba jual atomiser yang tak muat, dan bermacam-macam aksi beruk sarkas yang menyebabkan aku cakap - tak payahlah, dik.
Paling ringanlah, dia buat-buat tak paham order aku.
E-Cigarette ini kebanyakannya dijual oleh berukera. Jadi, dengan sedih, aku berhenti menghisap menatang ni dan kembali hisap rokok. Sesapa masih mau hisap, aku nak jual koleksi liquid yang aku ada, dengan 30% discount.
Sunday, May 19, 2013
Cross-Hatching
We never forget our first loves, and mine was and still is comic books.
My original dream was to drop everything else and write comic books. That was all I wanted to do. All the movies and TV series, animated features, newspaper work, books and all just came and gave me something to do and fed me, clothed me and provided a roof over my head.
I am also a public relations/political/corporate strategist specialising in social media, but my roots and my greatest education, was in comic books.
My parents were poor. Bla bla bla. My family lived on top of a hill, in the swamps on the outskirts of Kuantan, so comic books were a luxury. Growing up, I had a total of three comics magazines. Just three issues. One Gila-Gila, one Batu Api and one Gelihati. They were unsold back issues I found at the market and after some emotional blackmail, managed to get all three.
When I was in high school, I begged, borrowed and stole reading material. The Sun's Megazine at the time reprinted some pages of The Sandman Comics - a very mature fare years beyond my comprehension.
I didn't have money for comic books so all I could do was read the reviews of comic books. I read them, and as soon as I was online in 1994, I began looking for more material.
Back in those days, it took three hours just to download one picture. But there I was, in 1996, when my father bought our first computer and 14.4kbps dial-up modem, downloading porn.
Besides porn, I also downloaded studies on comics (comics were not online back then and the bootlegged versions still required a lot of downloading). There was an English master's thesis on The Sandman and another on Watchmen, so I read those. For days, over and over again. There was hardly anything else, other than porn.
So with my first paycheque from my first real job, I spent most of it on comic books. Buying comic books sent me into credit card debt which took me five years to clear.
There is something I am working on right now that might allow me to write and publish some comic books I have always wanted to do. These stories I have kept with me since I was 19 years old. Some are even older.
But first thing's first. There's that novel I need to finish.
Kino's Journey - Land of Prophecies
One of my favourite Kino's Journey (Kino no Tabi) episodes is the third one - Land of Prophecies.
For those of you unfamiliar with Kino's Journey, it is a 13-episode Japanese animation or anime which is an adaptation of a series of 'light novels' from Japan. The series tells of Kino - a young traveller with her talking motorrad (the precursor to the motorcycle) Hermes. In Kino's world, each 'country' seems like a different planet or even a different universe as a lot of things - technology, culture, Governments, socio-economic aspects - are vastly different.
Land of Prophecies basically talks of traditions and religious beliefs, as well as perceptions of a work of art. The fact that the interpretation of religion and art was integrated seamlessly together is exceptional.
The story begins with Kino and Hermes arriving at a country that believes the world will end the next day. This is because the country has been obsessed with a book called the Book of Prophecies which has been deciphered by a holy man from their South Tower as predicting the end of the world the very next day.
As the citizens prepare for the end, Kino happily shops around as no trader would charge money since the world was ending and all.
Well, tomorrow came, and the world did not end. The people were in a panic. The shopkeepers tried to get their money back from Kino, but she declined. One guy had the best quote - "How can I continue living if the world doesn't end?!"
I find that to be very poignant indeed!
Anyway, a priest from the North Tower said the South Tower miscalculated by 30 years, and so the people were placated by the fact that the world, indeed, was going to end.
And so Kino left the place and arrived at another country that tried to convince her that they have a tradition of wearing cat ears in celebration of Cat Burglars who overthrew the king. They tried to get her to participate in the cat-dance, but she politely refused and went on her way.
As she made her way in the forest, she was stopped by a woman who directed her to a man. The man documented the latest tradition embraced by the country and told Kino of all the other 'traditions' the country tried to convince travellers as theirs.
Apparently, amongst travellers, the country had a unique reputation of featuring different traditions every time they pass by. This is because since they deposed the king, they felt their country was in adequate for not having any tradition whatsoever. And that, the old man in the woods - a descendant of their deposed king - said was their unique tradition.
The third part of the episode deals with Kino arriving at a country much like Venice, where everyone is sad due to a constant reading of a sad poem. Many years ago, the greatest poet in the land stayed there and he wrote as well as recited happy, delightful poems. The king ordered him to write a poem of sadness, or he will be killed in 19 days.
The poet drew his inspiration from himself and being happy, he did not know how to express any form of sadness. On the eve of the last day, his wife killed herself in order for him to feel and understand sadness.
And so the poet recited the sad poem but was escorted out of the palace as the King retired to his chambers, scared of the immense sadness from his words. A few days later, the king died and the poet continued to walk and recite his poem over and over again, blanketing the country in sadness, with his small child following him everywhere.
Years later, the poet died, and the citizens were allowed a brief respite. However, on his funeral, his daughter - then 14 years of age - started reciting the poem again and again, for the next 10 years, further engulfing the country in misery.
Since then, it has been the country's tradition to choose a 14-year-old girl with the best voice every 10 years and have her recite the poem all day, every day.
One of the citizens said the poem was once written down in a book called the Book of Prophecies and became very popular at a distant country. Had Kino heard of such a book and such a country?
This triggered a flashback. As Kino left the Land of Prophecies, she saw an invading army attacking the Land of Prophecies. A soldier told her they also have the Book of Prophecies and believe the only way to prevent the end of the world was to destroy that other country.
This is a striking argument as to religion and art. How one work can be deciphered so differently by different groups of people.
If we take into account the short story about the Land of Traditions in the middle of the episode, I believe that to be an analogy of atheists or agnostics who sometimes try to convince people they do have some form of belief system such as New Age, or simply 'being spiritual'.
If we look at it from the aspect of tradition, I see it as Kino's Journey commenting how silly, wonderful and dangerous they are. One country did foolish things in anticipation of the end of the world; another started a war because of tradition/religion and the Land of Sadness decided to be sad - simply because it was their tradition.
In terms of religion, this episode has many interesting viewpoints of religion as a means to control and placate people, as a cause for war - all misguided translation from one man's terrible ordeal and an enduring work of art.
I can only hope that one day I can write something as layered and multi-dimensional as Kino's Journey, but it is my tradition and my belief to just go ahead and try.
With that, I go back to writing my novel. Cheers!
For those of you unfamiliar with Kino's Journey, it is a 13-episode Japanese animation or anime which is an adaptation of a series of 'light novels' from Japan. The series tells of Kino - a young traveller with her talking motorrad (the precursor to the motorcycle) Hermes. In Kino's world, each 'country' seems like a different planet or even a different universe as a lot of things - technology, culture, Governments, socio-economic aspects - are vastly different.
Land of Prophecies basically talks of traditions and religious beliefs, as well as perceptions of a work of art. The fact that the interpretation of religion and art was integrated seamlessly together is exceptional.
The story begins with Kino and Hermes arriving at a country that believes the world will end the next day. This is because the country has been obsessed with a book called the Book of Prophecies which has been deciphered by a holy man from their South Tower as predicting the end of the world the very next day.
As the citizens prepare for the end, Kino happily shops around as no trader would charge money since the world was ending and all.
Well, tomorrow came, and the world did not end. The people were in a panic. The shopkeepers tried to get their money back from Kino, but she declined. One guy had the best quote - "How can I continue living if the world doesn't end?!"
I find that to be very poignant indeed!
Anyway, a priest from the North Tower said the South Tower miscalculated by 30 years, and so the people were placated by the fact that the world, indeed, was going to end.
And so Kino left the place and arrived at another country that tried to convince her that they have a tradition of wearing cat ears in celebration of Cat Burglars who overthrew the king. They tried to get her to participate in the cat-dance, but she politely refused and went on her way.
As she made her way in the forest, she was stopped by a woman who directed her to a man. The man documented the latest tradition embraced by the country and told Kino of all the other 'traditions' the country tried to convince travellers as theirs.
Apparently, amongst travellers, the country had a unique reputation of featuring different traditions every time they pass by. This is because since they deposed the king, they felt their country was in adequate for not having any tradition whatsoever. And that, the old man in the woods - a descendant of their deposed king - said was their unique tradition.
The third part of the episode deals with Kino arriving at a country much like Venice, where everyone is sad due to a constant reading of a sad poem. Many years ago, the greatest poet in the land stayed there and he wrote as well as recited happy, delightful poems. The king ordered him to write a poem of sadness, or he will be killed in 19 days.
The poet drew his inspiration from himself and being happy, he did not know how to express any form of sadness. On the eve of the last day, his wife killed herself in order for him to feel and understand sadness.
And so the poet recited the sad poem but was escorted out of the palace as the King retired to his chambers, scared of the immense sadness from his words. A few days later, the king died and the poet continued to walk and recite his poem over and over again, blanketing the country in sadness, with his small child following him everywhere.
Years later, the poet died, and the citizens were allowed a brief respite. However, on his funeral, his daughter - then 14 years of age - started reciting the poem again and again, for the next 10 years, further engulfing the country in misery.
Since then, it has been the country's tradition to choose a 14-year-old girl with the best voice every 10 years and have her recite the poem all day, every day.
One of the citizens said the poem was once written down in a book called the Book of Prophecies and became very popular at a distant country. Had Kino heard of such a book and such a country?
This triggered a flashback. As Kino left the Land of Prophecies, she saw an invading army attacking the Land of Prophecies. A soldier told her they also have the Book of Prophecies and believe the only way to prevent the end of the world was to destroy that other country.
This is a striking argument as to religion and art. How one work can be deciphered so differently by different groups of people.
If we take into account the short story about the Land of Traditions in the middle of the episode, I believe that to be an analogy of atheists or agnostics who sometimes try to convince people they do have some form of belief system such as New Age, or simply 'being spiritual'.
If we look at it from the aspect of tradition, I see it as Kino's Journey commenting how silly, wonderful and dangerous they are. One country did foolish things in anticipation of the end of the world; another started a war because of tradition/religion and the Land of Sadness decided to be sad - simply because it was their tradition.
In terms of religion, this episode has many interesting viewpoints of religion as a means to control and placate people, as a cause for war - all misguided translation from one man's terrible ordeal and an enduring work of art.
I can only hope that one day I can write something as layered and multi-dimensional as Kino's Journey, but it is my tradition and my belief to just go ahead and try.
With that, I go back to writing my novel. Cheers!
Saturday, May 18, 2013
Cough Cough
On my recent trip to Phuket, I met a woman who listens. The last time I met a human with the capacity to listen without having their bullshit selves drowning them out was... I can't even remember. If I make millions of dollars, I will go back to Phuket, find that woman and romance the hell out of her.
So lots of people started writing detailed reviews and analysis of how the campaign machineries of both BN and PR to have been massive failures. Actually, Pakatan's campaign was successful. BN's was a massive failure.
The real reason is this - the BN people are much less interested in listening and are more inclined to shout and yell.
I have friends in both camps and the BN camp for the past five years have been strutting as if they know more, blablabla.
Going into the election, they were all really, really overconfident and then proceeded to give the clearest demonstration of pride coming before the fall on any instance or situation I have ever seen.
Here's the bad news. Some friends in the PR camp are showing the exact same symptoms. Man, even though I predict a PR win for GE14 in 2018, it is still PR's to lose. I think they're overusing the street rallies, making it passe and boring. I think they've started to yell and shout a lot as well.
Of course, I might be wrong, and this is what the people want.
To me, I believe you can always change the Government, but I do not believe a single bit that anything will change, except in name only.
I am only thinking of Thailand, and the stuff I want to write, and hopefully one day be free enough to leave KL to distant shores.
So lots of people started writing detailed reviews and analysis of how the campaign machineries of both BN and PR to have been massive failures. Actually, Pakatan's campaign was successful. BN's was a massive failure.
The real reason is this - the BN people are much less interested in listening and are more inclined to shout and yell.
I have friends in both camps and the BN camp for the past five years have been strutting as if they know more, blablabla.
Going into the election, they were all really, really overconfident and then proceeded to give the clearest demonstration of pride coming before the fall on any instance or situation I have ever seen.
Here's the bad news. Some friends in the PR camp are showing the exact same symptoms. Man, even though I predict a PR win for GE14 in 2018, it is still PR's to lose. I think they're overusing the street rallies, making it passe and boring. I think they've started to yell and shout a lot as well.
Of course, I might be wrong, and this is what the people want.
To me, I believe you can always change the Government, but I do not believe a single bit that anything will change, except in name only.
I am only thinking of Thailand, and the stuff I want to write, and hopefully one day be free enough to leave KL to distant shores.
Thursday, May 16, 2013
Preacher, Preacher, Fifth Grade Teacher!
Coming back from Phuket, I did a few things and then last night, I went to Merdekarya to do another stand-up routine. This one was more conventional and it worked better than last time.
So that's good.
I set up a company to do digital media consultancy recently, and am hoping to set up another outfit to do something more creative. I have the workflow in my head and I know what to do with both. Right now, it's a matter of finding and landing jobs here and there, as I finish my own creative projects.
I thought the results of the General Elections are good news. Now I can consult both losers - BN and PR - on how to come up with and execute campaigns on all media.
Their previous campaigns sucked really bad. The mismanagement of resources on BN's part, and PR's overlooking the rural community since they were buoyed - too much - by their success in urban areas.
If PR wants to reach out to the rural community, it will take 4-5 years to be executed properly. DO NOT copy BN's tactics of lavish visits and fake ceremonies. Copy their other, more subtle ones. And yes, BN is not totally dumb at this game.
Rural people are like urban people, and the best way is still through insurgencies. Send a few youths and gather information as well as plant seeds of distrust and doubt. Make friends, endear yourself to the folks. This has to be done and coordinated on a massive national scale. For that, I believe the cost would be in the millions.
Set up an NGO that sends youths to rural areas. Youths who are armed with PR ideology and information, talking points and engagement protocols. People in the rural areas love gossip or 'secret information'. 'Exclusive stuff' only they know, even if it is totally untrue. So conspiracy theories would work well here.
BN needs to beef up urban support. That is a more difficult task. Their dangling of carrots didn't work last time, because the keys to the carrot bin can always be handed to the other guy. I believe the best BN can do is maintain their rural support and hope for a simple majority come GE14 in 2018.
I believe PR will win the elections in 2018. Nothing will change, of course. Politicians are politicians and they are all liars. PR politicians will replace BN's corruption with their own. Also, those BN people who are so afraid of change need not worry. It's just the same old shit, so they won't lose anything. Unless they are the big bosses of major GLCs, of course. Those people are fucked, but since they're rich, who cares?
So that's good.
I set up a company to do digital media consultancy recently, and am hoping to set up another outfit to do something more creative. I have the workflow in my head and I know what to do with both. Right now, it's a matter of finding and landing jobs here and there, as I finish my own creative projects.
I thought the results of the General Elections are good news. Now I can consult both losers - BN and PR - on how to come up with and execute campaigns on all media.
Their previous campaigns sucked really bad. The mismanagement of resources on BN's part, and PR's overlooking the rural community since they were buoyed - too much - by their success in urban areas.
If PR wants to reach out to the rural community, it will take 4-5 years to be executed properly. DO NOT copy BN's tactics of lavish visits and fake ceremonies. Copy their other, more subtle ones. And yes, BN is not totally dumb at this game.
Rural people are like urban people, and the best way is still through insurgencies. Send a few youths and gather information as well as plant seeds of distrust and doubt. Make friends, endear yourself to the folks. This has to be done and coordinated on a massive national scale. For that, I believe the cost would be in the millions.
Set up an NGO that sends youths to rural areas. Youths who are armed with PR ideology and information, talking points and engagement protocols. People in the rural areas love gossip or 'secret information'. 'Exclusive stuff' only they know, even if it is totally untrue. So conspiracy theories would work well here.
BN needs to beef up urban support. That is a more difficult task. Their dangling of carrots didn't work last time, because the keys to the carrot bin can always be handed to the other guy. I believe the best BN can do is maintain their rural support and hope for a simple majority come GE14 in 2018.
I believe PR will win the elections in 2018. Nothing will change, of course. Politicians are politicians and they are all liars. PR politicians will replace BN's corruption with their own. Also, those BN people who are so afraid of change need not worry. It's just the same old shit, so they won't lose anything. Unless they are the big bosses of major GLCs, of course. Those people are fucked, but since they're rich, who cares?
Friday, May 10, 2013
Why Anwar Should Retire
This is a free consult for Pakatan Rakyat.
If Pakatan wants to have a confirmed win for GE14 in 2018, I believe Anwar Ibrahim should retire.
Almost the entire BN campaign was built around hatred for Anwar. Anwar the sodomite, Anwar the corrupt Finance Minister, Anwar the fucker of prostitutes, Anwar the Jewish stooge, ANwar the traitor. Word in the rural areas is a testament to BN's 'Anwar the boogeyman' campaign.
WIthout Anwar, there is no focus for the rural folks' and BN's hate. Without Anwar, I believe GE14 is a sure win for Pakatan Rakyat.
Right now, there are many in PR and PKR who can carry the opposition fight forward without Anwar - in fact, even better without Anwar. He is only there maybe as a spite against Dr M. Perhaps to prove the old man wrong. He is also holding PKR back. PKR is a weak link because of Anwar's baggage.
If you want to win, you need to set aside emotion and petty sentiment, and become completely ruthless in your execution. Getting Anwar to retire at the height of his power will also convey the right message - PR means business and its leaders are not totally in love with the idea of power and the idea of themselves in power. We won't have a Samy Vellu situation where getting an old man to retire is even more painful than removing a tumor.
If you want to convert voters from BN's camp, you need to get rid of the Anwar factor which served its purpose by establishing a platform and guiding PR on how to fight the BN way, as well as BN's own flawed tactics. Without Anwar, BN would be left with a variety of smaller targets. Gauging by how disorganised their campaign is at the moment - coupled with the fact that people who do work for BN are mostly paid for and hardly passionate free-labour volunteers like in PR's army - BN would not know how to respond.
"You want Anwar gone. He's gone. Retired as a winner. Now what?"
Imagine compiling a dossier of scandals for Nurul Izzah, Lim Guan Eng, Lim Kit Siang, Rafizi Ramli, Tian Chua, Elizabeth Wong, Karpal Singh, Tony Pua, Hadi Awang, and the rest. BN's resources would be so stretched, none of their smear campaigns would have the desired impact as they did with Anwar. They couldn't do it these past five years for these other people, and I doubt they can do it in the next five.
I am telling Pakatan Rakyat this for my own benefit - I want elections where issues are discussed and debated, not the personal backgrounds and private scandals of a few. The needs and concerns of the many should outweigh the petty considerations of individuals given special focus.
I am for freedom of speech, so 114A MUST go. Freedom of religion is another thing. You can set funding of billions for Islam and double recognise it as the national religion. But do not allow cases like that Indian lady - what's her name? Revathi? - to happen again. If people want to choose to believe in any religion, or change their minds afterwards, they should be allowed to do so. I do not want to change mine, but I sincerely believe that it is cruel to imprison (not put in prison, just throw them in moral-correction centres) anyone and take their children away from them, simply because they choose to leave Islam.
Also, no one is talking about laws being passed that encroach on civil liberties like the draconian no smoking act. This law was executed strictly in Melaka and while I appreciate, even laud the judiciary by handing me a reduced fine, I believe this law needs to be rethought. I was not comfortable having up to 10K fine or 2 years in prison hanging over my head for smoking one cigarette.
Racism is another issue. This one is not determined by BN or even PR, no matter what delusions they hold as to their power or influence. Racism happens because we - as a people - allow it to. It is up to us to not react or respond to hate-speech and racist talk. The responsibility is ours. We vote every day whether we should degenerate into racism, or rise above hate.
So, for the sake of less-annoying politics, Anwar should retire and prove to everyone that PR's cause is bigger than just one man. If he does that, then the cause becomes immortal and PR will be almost ensured victory in GE14, provided they take the correct strategic steps in reaching out to rural areas.
If Pakatan wants to have a confirmed win for GE14 in 2018, I believe Anwar Ibrahim should retire.
Almost the entire BN campaign was built around hatred for Anwar. Anwar the sodomite, Anwar the corrupt Finance Minister, Anwar the fucker of prostitutes, Anwar the Jewish stooge, ANwar the traitor. Word in the rural areas is a testament to BN's 'Anwar the boogeyman' campaign.
WIthout Anwar, there is no focus for the rural folks' and BN's hate. Without Anwar, I believe GE14 is a sure win for Pakatan Rakyat.
Right now, there are many in PR and PKR who can carry the opposition fight forward without Anwar - in fact, even better without Anwar. He is only there maybe as a spite against Dr M. Perhaps to prove the old man wrong. He is also holding PKR back. PKR is a weak link because of Anwar's baggage.
If you want to win, you need to set aside emotion and petty sentiment, and become completely ruthless in your execution. Getting Anwar to retire at the height of his power will also convey the right message - PR means business and its leaders are not totally in love with the idea of power and the idea of themselves in power. We won't have a Samy Vellu situation where getting an old man to retire is even more painful than removing a tumor.
If you want to convert voters from BN's camp, you need to get rid of the Anwar factor which served its purpose by establishing a platform and guiding PR on how to fight the BN way, as well as BN's own flawed tactics. Without Anwar, BN would be left with a variety of smaller targets. Gauging by how disorganised their campaign is at the moment - coupled with the fact that people who do work for BN are mostly paid for and hardly passionate free-labour volunteers like in PR's army - BN would not know how to respond.
"You want Anwar gone. He's gone. Retired as a winner. Now what?"
Imagine compiling a dossier of scandals for Nurul Izzah, Lim Guan Eng, Lim Kit Siang, Rafizi Ramli, Tian Chua, Elizabeth Wong, Karpal Singh, Tony Pua, Hadi Awang, and the rest. BN's resources would be so stretched, none of their smear campaigns would have the desired impact as they did with Anwar. They couldn't do it these past five years for these other people, and I doubt they can do it in the next five.
I am telling Pakatan Rakyat this for my own benefit - I want elections where issues are discussed and debated, not the personal backgrounds and private scandals of a few. The needs and concerns of the many should outweigh the petty considerations of individuals given special focus.
I am for freedom of speech, so 114A MUST go. Freedom of religion is another thing. You can set funding of billions for Islam and double recognise it as the national religion. But do not allow cases like that Indian lady - what's her name? Revathi? - to happen again. If people want to choose to believe in any religion, or change their minds afterwards, they should be allowed to do so. I do not want to change mine, but I sincerely believe that it is cruel to imprison (not put in prison, just throw them in moral-correction centres) anyone and take their children away from them, simply because they choose to leave Islam.
Also, no one is talking about laws being passed that encroach on civil liberties like the draconian no smoking act. This law was executed strictly in Melaka and while I appreciate, even laud the judiciary by handing me a reduced fine, I believe this law needs to be rethought. I was not comfortable having up to 10K fine or 2 years in prison hanging over my head for smoking one cigarette.
Racism is another issue. This one is not determined by BN or even PR, no matter what delusions they hold as to their power or influence. Racism happens because we - as a people - allow it to. It is up to us to not react or respond to hate-speech and racist talk. The responsibility is ours. We vote every day whether we should degenerate into racism, or rise above hate.
So, for the sake of less-annoying politics, Anwar should retire and prove to everyone that PR's cause is bigger than just one man. If he does that, then the cause becomes immortal and PR will be almost ensured victory in GE14, provided they take the correct strategic steps in reaching out to rural areas.
Tuesday, May 7, 2013
My (Hopefully) Final GE13 Post
I just got home from a trip to Kuantan where I voted at P.84 - Paya Besar for the Malaysian General Elections number 13.
Coming back, I had to check whether there were any race riots in KL, which is out of the norm.
This, after euphoria. I believe I am the only person in Malaysia loving these results. Everyone lost, so I win!
The much-anticipated defeat of BN by PR never came, making a lot of PR supporters feeling depressed and disappointed. This was egged on by allegations (some of them already proven false and others awaiting more info) by PR that the election was rigged. Was it? Was it not? I believe any and all allegations should be escalated into police reports and investigated. It will cost some money and resources, but it beats holding another election.
To the new voters who believe their votes mean something, I say this: Haaaaa-Ha!
The world doesn't revolve around you. Go suck a dick.
Mat Sabu lost, which is a crying shame. The mammal is hilarious and should be made PM. Husam Musa also lost for daring to go into enemy territory.
The fact remains that everyone lost in this election, and I clap my hands with glee. For now.
BN lost, despite still winning the election via simple majority of 133(they needed 112). Johor - formerly a BN stronghold, lost 4 (I think) Parliamentary seats to DAP, with some constituencies thrown in.
The much-touted recapture of Selangor never happened and BN in fact lost more seats to PR. The 'drubbing' hinted at in Penang was also a no-show. Kelantan stayed with PAS and Perak remained in BN's grasp, meaning they won't have to rely on jumping politicians to steal back the state like last time.
All the touted Main Events - Gelang Patah, Lembah Pantai, Shah Alam, Kuantan, resulted in a BN loss.
To the closet BN people who came out to vote (especially in Shah Alam), thinking their absence made all the difference in 2008, I say this: Haaaaa-Ha!
The world doesn't revolve around you. Go suck a dick.
What troubles me are these racist sentiments being flamed at the moment by BOTH sides. I believe Utusan's headline was uncalled for, and I do believe PR has been fanning the flames of racism wayyyyyyyyy earlier than this and as much as BN. It's just that they were smarter in hiding their tracks and not go all out in the open like Utusan did.
Najib gave a speech after BN won a simple majority, saying things like he did not anticipate the Chinese voters' heel turn. And I'm at home, saying, "Where you been, Pakcik?" at the TV set.
Yeah, Najib has shown some balls, but I am worried where those balls will be placed.
I do not wish to add fuel to the fire, so I will not address the race issue except during my stand up perhaps next week at Merdekarya when I offer Malaysia the final solution to ending racism.
I would like to commend the EC - I got no beef with them and believe they have done a good job, all things considered.
I would also like to say that I hate, hate, HATE the campaign mechanisms employed by both parties. PR as usual spreads lies and paranoia, mixed with ugly truth. BN comes up with some stupid music videos which were quite entertaining. I will never forget BN's FT team's Love is in the Air attempt which featured the team members jumping up and down like gibbons, to the classic and legendary Beribu-ribu Tahniah MIC vid.
Before that, there was the 1M4U song which screamed propaganda. It was like, "I M for PROPAGANDA! I M for PROPAGANDA!" What the fuck, man?
These attempts at multimedia content and reaching out top the young, to me, shows how detached the BN machinery is to the real world, and also drowned out some amazing animations and animated stuff coming out from BN - yeah, I was gobbling everything up like crazy.
These five years will be about performance. Elections are all about style. Based on style, PR won, even though their stupid music video with the abundance of lens flares is equally stupid, but not stupid enough.
Another note: NST Online and some other mainstream media reported fake news during polling day. I saw one SMS and a few tweets saying Nong Chik defeated Nurul Izzah when the reverse is true. WHEN THE REVERSE IS TRUE! Same shit with Shah Alam. And results coming in at 1pm? What the fuck?
To my friends at NST, please remember that you are still a neutral news body that is expected to report real news. I am disappointed at this simply because this means NST's credibility online will continue to suffer, especially amongst the new Gen who don't have a reason to give you a fuck. Instead of being the one source people can trust when all other sources are jumping the gun and shoving said firearm into their buttholes, NST and other mainstream media should have stood tall and did it my way.
Coming back, I had to check whether there were any race riots in KL, which is out of the norm.
This, after euphoria. I believe I am the only person in Malaysia loving these results. Everyone lost, so I win!
The much-anticipated defeat of BN by PR never came, making a lot of PR supporters feeling depressed and disappointed. This was egged on by allegations (some of them already proven false and others awaiting more info) by PR that the election was rigged. Was it? Was it not? I believe any and all allegations should be escalated into police reports and investigated. It will cost some money and resources, but it beats holding another election.
To the new voters who believe their votes mean something, I say this: Haaaaa-Ha!
The world doesn't revolve around you. Go suck a dick.
Mat Sabu lost, which is a crying shame. The mammal is hilarious and should be made PM. Husam Musa also lost for daring to go into enemy territory.
The fact remains that everyone lost in this election, and I clap my hands with glee. For now.
BN lost, despite still winning the election via simple majority of 133(they needed 112). Johor - formerly a BN stronghold, lost 4 (I think) Parliamentary seats to DAP, with some constituencies thrown in.
The much-touted recapture of Selangor never happened and BN in fact lost more seats to PR. The 'drubbing' hinted at in Penang was also a no-show. Kelantan stayed with PAS and Perak remained in BN's grasp, meaning they won't have to rely on jumping politicians to steal back the state like last time.
All the touted Main Events - Gelang Patah, Lembah Pantai, Shah Alam, Kuantan, resulted in a BN loss.
To the closet BN people who came out to vote (especially in Shah Alam), thinking their absence made all the difference in 2008, I say this: Haaaaa-Ha!
The world doesn't revolve around you. Go suck a dick.
What troubles me are these racist sentiments being flamed at the moment by BOTH sides. I believe Utusan's headline was uncalled for, and I do believe PR has been fanning the flames of racism wayyyyyyyyy earlier than this and as much as BN. It's just that they were smarter in hiding their tracks and not go all out in the open like Utusan did.
Najib gave a speech after BN won a simple majority, saying things like he did not anticipate the Chinese voters' heel turn. And I'm at home, saying, "Where you been, Pakcik?" at the TV set.
Yeah, Najib has shown some balls, but I am worried where those balls will be placed.
I do not wish to add fuel to the fire, so I will not address the race issue except during my stand up perhaps next week at Merdekarya when I offer Malaysia the final solution to ending racism.
I would like to commend the EC - I got no beef with them and believe they have done a good job, all things considered.
I would also like to say that I hate, hate, HATE the campaign mechanisms employed by both parties. PR as usual spreads lies and paranoia, mixed with ugly truth. BN comes up with some stupid music videos which were quite entertaining. I will never forget BN's FT team's Love is in the Air attempt which featured the team members jumping up and down like gibbons, to the classic and legendary Beribu-ribu Tahniah MIC vid.
Before that, there was the 1M4U song which screamed propaganda. It was like, "I M for PROPAGANDA! I M for PROPAGANDA!" What the fuck, man?
These attempts at multimedia content and reaching out top the young, to me, shows how detached the BN machinery is to the real world, and also drowned out some amazing animations and animated stuff coming out from BN - yeah, I was gobbling everything up like crazy.
These five years will be about performance. Elections are all about style. Based on style, PR won, even though their stupid music video with the abundance of lens flares is equally stupid, but not stupid enough.
Another note: NST Online and some other mainstream media reported fake news during polling day. I saw one SMS and a few tweets saying Nong Chik defeated Nurul Izzah when the reverse is true. WHEN THE REVERSE IS TRUE! Same shit with Shah Alam. And results coming in at 1pm? What the fuck?
To my friends at NST, please remember that you are still a neutral news body that is expected to report real news. I am disappointed at this simply because this means NST's credibility online will continue to suffer, especially amongst the new Gen who don't have a reason to give you a fuck. Instead of being the one source people can trust when all other sources are jumping the gun and shoving said firearm into their buttholes, NST and other mainstream media should have stood tall and did it my way.
Wednesday, May 1, 2013
Stand-Up Now Tell Me You're Gonna Love Me Forever - Oh Oh Oh!
So I did a stand up comedy routine at Merdekarya tonight.
There were about 17 THOUSAND people, going by both BN and PR calculations. I felt like Andy Kaufman, really, because I did a routine I like which I don't think was the right one to get the desired effect of laughter. It was Andy Kaufman when he was Jim Carrey and did the 'Cows go moo' song in clubs.
My stand-up was more of a smile kind of thing, because lots of people smiled but laughter was far and few in between.
I can dissect it to bits, but having gone up on stage and threw away my dignity, I can safely say I am ready to do more.
It was fun simply because I get to go out and talk to people. I enjoy this some of the times, but mostly avoid it because I don't really like people.
Anyway, I'll be back on stage maybe two weeks from now, to deliver another routine. For now, I'm back to my novel and consider the ramifications of writing and perhaps publishing such an incendiary text.
There were about 17 THOUSAND people, going by both BN and PR calculations. I felt like Andy Kaufman, really, because I did a routine I like which I don't think was the right one to get the desired effect of laughter. It was Andy Kaufman when he was Jim Carrey and did the 'Cows go moo' song in clubs.
My stand-up was more of a smile kind of thing, because lots of people smiled but laughter was far and few in between.
I can dissect it to bits, but having gone up on stage and threw away my dignity, I can safely say I am ready to do more.
It was fun simply because I get to go out and talk to people. I enjoy this some of the times, but mostly avoid it because I don't really like people.
Anyway, I'll be back on stage maybe two weeks from now, to deliver another routine. For now, I'm back to my novel and consider the ramifications of writing and perhaps publishing such an incendiary text.
Monday, April 29, 2013
Journeyman Mistakes: Good or Good Enough
Lots of people approach me and tell me they want to write. But they never do, so fuck them.
Those who do, sometimes ask this stupid question, "But what if it's not good enough? What if people hate it?"
Here's some science I pulled out of my ass - no matter what you do, 3% of the people will love it, and 3% of the people will hate it. The rest of the world - 94% of them, won't give a flying fuck.
People are self-obsessed. They only care and think about themselves. All their judgments and reactions are in reference to their stupid, fat, egotistical, dumb selves.
Look at the current campaign for GE13. You can't miss it, if you're in Malaysia. Both PR and BN plaster every inch of the city with their flags, banners and bullshit - mostly bullshit. It's as if people are so stupid, they will vote based on who can put more of their logos in public places.
The sad part is - it is true. People are stupid.
They will vote for the General Election, and decide whether they like a story/politician or not, or make any decision - based on nothing other than how it will make them look.
Since the Malaysian mentality is stuck at 4 years old, we as a society are still grappling with self-image issues. The society and its people are shallow motherfuckers.
My point is, in writing, fuck off and die. Who gives a fuck whether it's good or good enough? No one can tell, really, because it's relative to what and how it makes some people look, whenever they comment on a work of art or a work of rubbish.
It doesn't matter.
So the next time I put up a call for submissions, don't be afraid and send me your stuff. I have read some great ones which will go into the book KL Noir: White and some weak ones which - if I have the time - I will send back to the writers with my comments.
Those who do, sometimes ask this stupid question, "But what if it's not good enough? What if people hate it?"
Here's some science I pulled out of my ass - no matter what you do, 3% of the people will love it, and 3% of the people will hate it. The rest of the world - 94% of them, won't give a flying fuck.
People are self-obsessed. They only care and think about themselves. All their judgments and reactions are in reference to their stupid, fat, egotistical, dumb selves.
Look at the current campaign for GE13. You can't miss it, if you're in Malaysia. Both PR and BN plaster every inch of the city with their flags, banners and bullshit - mostly bullshit. It's as if people are so stupid, they will vote based on who can put more of their logos in public places.
The sad part is - it is true. People are stupid.
They will vote for the General Election, and decide whether they like a story/politician or not, or make any decision - based on nothing other than how it will make them look.
Since the Malaysian mentality is stuck at 4 years old, we as a society are still grappling with self-image issues. The society and its people are shallow motherfuckers.
My point is, in writing, fuck off and die. Who gives a fuck whether it's good or good enough? No one can tell, really, because it's relative to what and how it makes some people look, whenever they comment on a work of art or a work of rubbish.
It doesn't matter.
So the next time I put up a call for submissions, don't be afraid and send me your stuff. I have read some great ones which will go into the book KL Noir: White and some weak ones which - if I have the time - I will send back to the writers with my comments.
Wednesday, April 24, 2013
Decade of Decadence: Freedom
In my 10 years working in the media industry, I have quit my job maybe several times. Always, I quit to go and do freelance or to set up my own company.
My recent resignation from the biggest media company in the country is also to set off on my own and to enjoy the freedom of being out there and doing fuck all and masturbatorily love myself and suck my own dick.
My new company starts early May, probably before the election. I have some deadlines in terms of setting up service packages, pricing, and SOPs which I need to present to the team.
If you don't set how things are going to work or do ad hoc all the way, all you're going to get is more work. I'm talking from experience.
Servicing clients is one thing, but sometimes clients don't know what they need.
Being the Greatest Mind of the 21st Century, starting May 1, I am not taking any shit from anyone. You want shit done? You listen to me. You want what's good for you? You do what I say.
In order to enjoy freedom, to be free to do anything, you must be prepared to lose everything.
I have made decisions all my life so I would not be responsible for anyone's lives but my own. I have no children, no wife, no house, no car, no whatever. I have nothing. To lose.
I am not jumping into any project midway. I am not going to follow other people's workflow but my own. It's my way or the highway. And I'm okay with taking the highway cause it gets me there faster.
So fuck all of you who doubt me. Suck my substantial dick.
My recent resignation from the biggest media company in the country is also to set off on my own and to enjoy the freedom of being out there and doing fuck all and masturbatorily love myself and suck my own dick.
My new company starts early May, probably before the election. I have some deadlines in terms of setting up service packages, pricing, and SOPs which I need to present to the team.
If you don't set how things are going to work or do ad hoc all the way, all you're going to get is more work. I'm talking from experience.
Servicing clients is one thing, but sometimes clients don't know what they need.
Being the Greatest Mind of the 21st Century, starting May 1, I am not taking any shit from anyone. You want shit done? You listen to me. You want what's good for you? You do what I say.
In order to enjoy freedom, to be free to do anything, you must be prepared to lose everything.
I have made decisions all my life so I would not be responsible for anyone's lives but my own. I have no children, no wife, no house, no car, no whatever. I have nothing. To lose.
I am not jumping into any project midway. I am not going to follow other people's workflow but my own. It's my way or the highway. And I'm okay with taking the highway cause it gets me there faster.
So fuck all of you who doubt me. Suck my substantial dick.
The Malay Melee: The Next Big Thing
I looked at the roster of politicians slated to be the next big things, and the only person I saw from PAS or PAIS-M (Parti Agama Islam Se-Malaysia) was Mat Sabu.
I heard at one time, there was a rift in PAIS-M, between the old ultra-conservative ones and the younger dudes. Where the fuck are the younger dudes? The people next in line seem to be Mat Sabu.
I mean, if anyone were to become PM from PAIS-M, it could be Mat Sabu. I don't know about Spender Stopa or Husam Musa - Kickdefella's mortal enemy - but I believe Mat Sabu speaks to the young ultra-conservative types.
I didn't really want to write about politics again. I wanted to write about languages, but then I realised that the wave of neo-conservatism, the Born Again Christians, Born Again Muslims (BAM!) amongst the youth and the young ultra-Malays supporting the extremist group Perkasa started with a shift from English as the preferred medium, to BM and Chinese, as well as Tamil to a lesser extent.
I heard that allegedly, you can find the bodies of English newspapers in the Klang river. Circulation has gone down, and many blame the Internet. I dunno. Harian Metro is doing brisk business, and I believe Chinese-language dailies have stayed strong.
Only English newspapers have suffered. Why? I can point a lot of fingers (plus one substantial dick) to a number of factors, but chief amongst them could be the people's shift towards languages other than English.
This shift to BM, Mandarin and others have had - I suspect - a disuniting effect. People in this country are no longer talking the same language, or about the same things.
I blame it all on Anwar. Years ago, I had a chat with Prof Khoo Khay Kim who reminisced about the Anway halcyon days of the '70s. Anwar led a student rebellion in UM at the time and part of this was to go and erase/smear/attack any sign in English.
His cause was originally a good one. It was about getting the poor to UM. People like in Baling, Kedah. The thing about them not getting into UM and other tertiary education places was in a major part due to their weak grasp of English.
Anwar sought to change this, and to a certain extent, he did. For generations, English has been neglected and after talking to a number of students from outside city centres, I have discovered that the remnants of Anwar's fight was this hatred for English amongst mainly Malay folk.
Malays who speak English were ridiculed and looked at 'diagonally' (dipandang serong). But these are all anecdotal and wanking.
The problem with limiting yourself to only one language is you close doors to other ideas. My current writing, for example, is steeped in BM, English as well as Japanese traditions.
Cintan, the novel I am writing right now, taps into Chuck Palahniuk's anarchist Fight Club manifesto, Edward Albee's absurdist theatre - one of only a few texts I studied in UM as part of an elective course - Osamu Dazai's wanking love-letter to writing and to himself in Run, Melos, Run, Sakaguchi Ango's In the Woods Beneath the Cherry Blossoms in Full Bloom as well as young writer Hadi M Nor's Sepucuk Pistol Dalam Laci anthology.
As you can see, I am very much in love with the idea of the book as well as the idea of myself. And some people thought I was going into politics? Absurd!
But anyway, I see nothing wrong with Mat Sabu being PM. He is at least entertaining. Sure, he will burn the country down under the heel of Islamic extremism and animal-like stupidity, but at the very least, we shall have a good laugh as we all die from the fires of religious industry.
I heard at one time, there was a rift in PAIS-M, between the old ultra-conservative ones and the younger dudes. Where the fuck are the younger dudes? The people next in line seem to be Mat Sabu.
I mean, if anyone were to become PM from PAIS-M, it could be Mat Sabu. I don't know about Spender Stopa or Husam Musa - Kickdefella's mortal enemy - but I believe Mat Sabu speaks to the young ultra-conservative types.
I didn't really want to write about politics again. I wanted to write about languages, but then I realised that the wave of neo-conservatism, the Born Again Christians, Born Again Muslims (BAM!) amongst the youth and the young ultra-Malays supporting the extremist group Perkasa started with a shift from English as the preferred medium, to BM and Chinese, as well as Tamil to a lesser extent.
I heard that allegedly, you can find the bodies of English newspapers in the Klang river. Circulation has gone down, and many blame the Internet. I dunno. Harian Metro is doing brisk business, and I believe Chinese-language dailies have stayed strong.
Only English newspapers have suffered. Why? I can point a lot of fingers (plus one substantial dick) to a number of factors, but chief amongst them could be the people's shift towards languages other than English.
This shift to BM, Mandarin and others have had - I suspect - a disuniting effect. People in this country are no longer talking the same language, or about the same things.
I blame it all on Anwar. Years ago, I had a chat with Prof Khoo Khay Kim who reminisced about the Anway halcyon days of the '70s. Anwar led a student rebellion in UM at the time and part of this was to go and erase/smear/attack any sign in English.
His cause was originally a good one. It was about getting the poor to UM. People like in Baling, Kedah. The thing about them not getting into UM and other tertiary education places was in a major part due to their weak grasp of English.
Anwar sought to change this, and to a certain extent, he did. For generations, English has been neglected and after talking to a number of students from outside city centres, I have discovered that the remnants of Anwar's fight was this hatred for English amongst mainly Malay folk.
Malays who speak English were ridiculed and looked at 'diagonally' (dipandang serong). But these are all anecdotal and wanking.
The problem with limiting yourself to only one language is you close doors to other ideas. My current writing, for example, is steeped in BM, English as well as Japanese traditions.
Cintan, the novel I am writing right now, taps into Chuck Palahniuk's anarchist Fight Club manifesto, Edward Albee's absurdist theatre - one of only a few texts I studied in UM as part of an elective course - Osamu Dazai's wanking love-letter to writing and to himself in Run, Melos, Run, Sakaguchi Ango's In the Woods Beneath the Cherry Blossoms in Full Bloom as well as young writer Hadi M Nor's Sepucuk Pistol Dalam Laci anthology.
As you can see, I am very much in love with the idea of the book as well as the idea of myself. And some people thought I was going into politics? Absurd!
But anyway, I see nothing wrong with Mat Sabu being PM. He is at least entertaining. Sure, he will burn the country down under the heel of Islamic extremism and animal-like stupidity, but at the very least, we shall have a good laugh as we all die from the fires of religious industry.
Tuesday, April 23, 2013
GE13 Campaign Update
I am currently watching a dreadfully boring TV3 show on the impending election. It features two speakers who drone on and on about stats and numbers - fine - but the BN agenda was right smack dab in the middle of the room like a giant white elephant humping the studio lights.
I see this, and I believe this is an accurate representation of what is happening in the Malaysian political landscape at the moment. Preachers preaching to the choir.
I had an inkling of this when I tried to show - in the same week - the Anwar sex video screencaps as well as GlobalWitness' expose on alleged corruption in Sarawak to both BN and PR supporters.
Both types of people REFUSED to watch the video that is not in line with their fixed beliefs. One guy went so far as running across the room.
One person saw one of the videos, went home crying, and had to be consoled by other people who told her it was all just a dream.
Such is the political landscape in Malaysia. Campaigning was done years ago, and I doubt we will see any dramatic major swing in the next few days.
Of all news outlets, Al-Jazeera had the most interesting implied view. According to some friends who have Astro, some parts of the GE13 news coverage on Al-Jazeera supposedly implied this election as between the poor Malays (preached to incessantly by BN) and the non-Malays (by non-BN).
Yes. Race-based politics, which is nothing new. Even the political parties are not addressing it directly, but they do it anyway. Which is fine. addressing the race issues might fan the stupid flames so much and some incidents might occur.
Politics is usually not about love or ideas. It is about hate and the victim mentality. It is about ego and these days, I can't even go out and see my fellow Malaysians without having this choking hate-miasma shoved down my throat. It is unfortunate, but this is how I see politics as - of course - a divisive thing rather than something that unites people under a common cause. Really, where are the causes? Buried under an avalanche of personal attacks, what we have here shows me that for the past 56 years have always been hateful monkey politics - and I am pointing fingers as well as one substantial dick - at ALL sides.
On a lighter note, I notice some cunning on BN cybertroopers' side on social media. Before this, The Internet have always been the playground of the opposition. Hence, most populist hot chicks - or at the very least girls who do not look like complete animals - have always been anti-establishment.
The BN cybertroopers have wisened up and kept retweeting stuff by girls who are pro-establishment, who look half-decent. I have no proof for this, and I could just be talking out of my ass. But if this is in any way true, then please continue.
Meanwhile, I run away from all this negative energy by focusing on my own work - a novel, one video, some projects and a book I am editing. I have booked a vacation to Thailand after the election so as to cleanse myself from all this hate and negativity, which I am sure will grip the nation for the next month or so.
I see this, and I believe this is an accurate representation of what is happening in the Malaysian political landscape at the moment. Preachers preaching to the choir.
I had an inkling of this when I tried to show - in the same week - the Anwar sex video screencaps as well as GlobalWitness' expose on alleged corruption in Sarawak to both BN and PR supporters.
Both types of people REFUSED to watch the video that is not in line with their fixed beliefs. One guy went so far as running across the room.
One person saw one of the videos, went home crying, and had to be consoled by other people who told her it was all just a dream.
Such is the political landscape in Malaysia. Campaigning was done years ago, and I doubt we will see any dramatic major swing in the next few days.
Of all news outlets, Al-Jazeera had the most interesting implied view. According to some friends who have Astro, some parts of the GE13 news coverage on Al-Jazeera supposedly implied this election as between the poor Malays (preached to incessantly by BN) and the non-Malays (by non-BN).
Yes. Race-based politics, which is nothing new. Even the political parties are not addressing it directly, but they do it anyway. Which is fine. addressing the race issues might fan the stupid flames so much and some incidents might occur.
Politics is usually not about love or ideas. It is about hate and the victim mentality. It is about ego and these days, I can't even go out and see my fellow Malaysians without having this choking hate-miasma shoved down my throat. It is unfortunate, but this is how I see politics as - of course - a divisive thing rather than something that unites people under a common cause. Really, where are the causes? Buried under an avalanche of personal attacks, what we have here shows me that for the past 56 years have always been hateful monkey politics - and I am pointing fingers as well as one substantial dick - at ALL sides.
On a lighter note, I notice some cunning on BN cybertroopers' side on social media. Before this, The Internet have always been the playground of the opposition. Hence, most populist hot chicks - or at the very least girls who do not look like complete animals - have always been anti-establishment.
The BN cybertroopers have wisened up and kept retweeting stuff by girls who are pro-establishment, who look half-decent. I have no proof for this, and I could just be talking out of my ass. But if this is in any way true, then please continue.
Meanwhile, I run away from all this negative energy by focusing on my own work - a novel, one video, some projects and a book I am editing. I have booked a vacation to Thailand after the election so as to cleanse myself from all this hate and negativity, which I am sure will grip the nation for the next month or so.
Decade of Decadence: The Five Year Gap
Malaysian media is usually about five or at least a few years late from the global leaders.
Social media adoption has been relatively fast, but we're still a few years behind.
This creates opportunity as well as headaches.
Some of the biggest challenges in the industry are: managing expectations, educating the industry and making them understand how things work in this world.
I have been online since 1994, searching for Doraemon porn whenever we break into the computer room at my school. I also have a degree in computer science, which I have never used.
What interested me, though, were the online communities. How humans act online is similar and at the same time different than in the real world. I frequented and am still a member of certain forums online, for example the currently-defunct Phuket-Info, where I researched and gleaned information, tips, tricks and made friends in the wonderful world of Thai nightlife.
I have been banned many times from the Melayu.com forums because I was in a phase in my life when I constantly challenged people's religious beliefs and make fun of idiots as a form of entertainment.
If you want to see how people interact online, go to YouTube and read the comments there. Then go to political Facebook pages. See the difference? Why? Accountability, for one. FB has some of your info and lots of people use it to socialise with their friends. So it is easier for them to be exposed on FB as well as places like LinkedIN where people post their full resumes online.
How information travels is also different. Technology influences how humans act and react online, but the way and mannerisms are different. Twitter is all about speed as well as the ephemeral nature of the Internet and information.
Go to 9gag, icanhascheezburger, 4chan and numerous online game forums for some injection of culture.
Eventually, after a few years, a big picture starts to form. You can see the altruistic side of humans as they contribute and edit Wikipedia pages. You can also see their dark nature by reading said YouTube comments.
There are literally thousands of different tools and hundreds of different platforms out there, but the most important is yourself.
Social media adoption has been relatively fast, but we're still a few years behind.
This creates opportunity as well as headaches.
Some of the biggest challenges in the industry are: managing expectations, educating the industry and making them understand how things work in this world.
I have been online since 1994, searching for Doraemon porn whenever we break into the computer room at my school. I also have a degree in computer science, which I have never used.
What interested me, though, were the online communities. How humans act online is similar and at the same time different than in the real world. I frequented and am still a member of certain forums online, for example the currently-defunct Phuket-Info, where I researched and gleaned information, tips, tricks and made friends in the wonderful world of Thai nightlife.
I have been banned many times from the Melayu.com forums because I was in a phase in my life when I constantly challenged people's religious beliefs and make fun of idiots as a form of entertainment.
If you want to see how people interact online, go to YouTube and read the comments there. Then go to political Facebook pages. See the difference? Why? Accountability, for one. FB has some of your info and lots of people use it to socialise with their friends. So it is easier for them to be exposed on FB as well as places like LinkedIN where people post their full resumes online.
How information travels is also different. Technology influences how humans act and react online, but the way and mannerisms are different. Twitter is all about speed as well as the ephemeral nature of the Internet and information.
Go to 9gag, icanhascheezburger, 4chan and numerous online game forums for some injection of culture.
Eventually, after a few years, a big picture starts to form. You can see the altruistic side of humans as they contribute and edit Wikipedia pages. You can also see their dark nature by reading said YouTube comments.
There are literally thousands of different tools and hundreds of different platforms out there, but the most important is yourself.
Decade of Decadence: Kamen Rider! Decade!
My first job was at The Malay Mail.
Actually, my first job was at a pharmacy in Midvalley Megamall. I was a cashier. They paid me RM600 a month and if there was something crazy like the Carrefour Midnight Sale or something, I got some overtime.
The reason I worked there was because I was holding out for a writing job. I graduated in computer science but had decided to not pursue a career in that line.
I had, by that time, received an offer to present a system I developed in UM to a conference in Portugal. I developed a tutorial system complete with an AI that could mark tests and tutorials - even subjective questions and answers - and then assess weaknesses as well as dispense notes and reading lists to individual students based on their unique performances and answers.
The system could identify which part of the course each student is weak with and then point them to relevant passages or pages of reference books/notes.
It's pretty simple now, and I see kids as young as 12 coming up with even more complex and elegant systems. But this was 2003 and back then, it was quite okay. For UM.
However, I have decided that I was going to be a writer. Fuck everything else.
When I told my father, he was pissed off.
"Who are you going to write for? Harakah? Tamil Nesan?"
And so I was a cashier at a pharmacy, waiting for that writing job. The pharmacy was just outside Carrefour and Carrefour had this lunch deli, where you can buy fried rice or chicken, whatever. They sold fried rice by the weight of the amount you took.
I went to the thing and used a skill I learned in school - I spent 10 minutes each time, filling my polystyrene with bits of chicken they put in the fried rice. And then placing a thin layer of fried rice on top.
All my life up to that point was about surviving in harsh conditions, and RM600 in the middle of KL is fucking harsh.
It was possible to survive. I mean, dinner was usually fried egg with rice and aji-shio (pepper loaded with MSG). I took the bus, which meant a lot of walking.
I squatted at friends' apartments. I also took my first writing job - as a food reviewer.
There was no pay, which led me to quit the thing after a month or two - but I got to eat. I ate at the most expensive restaurants in town. I had escargot, truffles, Australian crab, lobster, scallops, fresh-water prawns, honey-fried squid, shark's fin, high-end dim sum - you name it. I have eaten every type of food I would want to eat.
This is how I supplemented my diet for a brief period.
I was also writing scripts. I used my online contacts to land exactly one animation writing gig. I did three episodes, but was paid for only one, cause the other two sucked balls.
I got help from one of my brother's friends to print out 52 applications for writing positions all around town. I got called to six interviews. NST was the first.
They asked me to write a feature story, and I did. Then, based on that one article, I got into The Malay Mail.
Looking back, those few months were crazy. I did not have money or support. My family was not and is not rich, and I was shoving as much MSG as I could into my face to mask the blandness of rice.
Actually, my first job was at a pharmacy in Midvalley Megamall. I was a cashier. They paid me RM600 a month and if there was something crazy like the Carrefour Midnight Sale or something, I got some overtime.
The reason I worked there was because I was holding out for a writing job. I graduated in computer science but had decided to not pursue a career in that line.
I had, by that time, received an offer to present a system I developed in UM to a conference in Portugal. I developed a tutorial system complete with an AI that could mark tests and tutorials - even subjective questions and answers - and then assess weaknesses as well as dispense notes and reading lists to individual students based on their unique performances and answers.
The system could identify which part of the course each student is weak with and then point them to relevant passages or pages of reference books/notes.
It's pretty simple now, and I see kids as young as 12 coming up with even more complex and elegant systems. But this was 2003 and back then, it was quite okay. For UM.
However, I have decided that I was going to be a writer. Fuck everything else.
When I told my father, he was pissed off.
"Who are you going to write for? Harakah? Tamil Nesan?"
And so I was a cashier at a pharmacy, waiting for that writing job. The pharmacy was just outside Carrefour and Carrefour had this lunch deli, where you can buy fried rice or chicken, whatever. They sold fried rice by the weight of the amount you took.
I went to the thing and used a skill I learned in school - I spent 10 minutes each time, filling my polystyrene with bits of chicken they put in the fried rice. And then placing a thin layer of fried rice on top.
All my life up to that point was about surviving in harsh conditions, and RM600 in the middle of KL is fucking harsh.
It was possible to survive. I mean, dinner was usually fried egg with rice and aji-shio (pepper loaded with MSG). I took the bus, which meant a lot of walking.
I squatted at friends' apartments. I also took my first writing job - as a food reviewer.
There was no pay, which led me to quit the thing after a month or two - but I got to eat. I ate at the most expensive restaurants in town. I had escargot, truffles, Australian crab, lobster, scallops, fresh-water prawns, honey-fried squid, shark's fin, high-end dim sum - you name it. I have eaten every type of food I would want to eat.
This is how I supplemented my diet for a brief period.
I was also writing scripts. I used my online contacts to land exactly one animation writing gig. I did three episodes, but was paid for only one, cause the other two sucked balls.
I got help from one of my brother's friends to print out 52 applications for writing positions all around town. I got called to six interviews. NST was the first.
They asked me to write a feature story, and I did. Then, based on that one article, I got into The Malay Mail.
Looking back, those few months were crazy. I did not have money or support. My family was not and is not rich, and I was shoving as much MSG as I could into my face to mask the blandness of rice.
Sunday, April 21, 2013
Decade of Decadence: Sandy and Friends
As I was writing and making preparations for tomorrow's slate of tasks and meetings this late afternoon, my PC - a Sandy Bridge Intel Core i5 2500 system - became unresponsive.
I rebooted and got this error message in BIOS - CPU Temperature Error. I went into BIOS and discovered the bar was RED. Shit.
I quickly turned it off and then went to bed.
After that, I opened the casing and wiped away a few years worth of dust and dirt. I rebooted the system and checked BIOS. The temp was steadily increasing beyond 55 degrees Celsius.
I know now that the limit would be 65 degrees, making allowances for Malaysia's hot temperature and high humidity.
I made some phone calls and had a possible diagnosis - the fan wasn't spinning fast enough anymore, or some material at its copper whatever is fucked.
So I took out the fan, rushed to Digital Mall PJ to buy a new fan, and then rushed back home. The whole trip and buying session took 30 minutes or less. All the while, I was yelling "Sandyyyy! Sandyyyyy!" like a character from a rom-com movie.
I replaced the fan and then saw the temperature hovering at a stable 51 degrees. Phew.
I love my PCs. They have served me better than any human.
All started in the early '90s with my brother's 486 machine.In 1996, my father bought a Pentium-S PC. It was the first Pentium 100MHz chip, overclocked to 133MHz. Hence, Pentium-S.
My own PC was a Pentium III machine. 833MHz, with 128MB RAM. Then moved to AMD dual-core. The AMD machine gave me loads of problems. Then I made the switch to Sandy Bridge and so far have been extremely satisfied with the performance of the hardware as well as Windows 7.
The fuck am doing? I need to go and finish that novel.
I rebooted and got this error message in BIOS - CPU Temperature Error. I went into BIOS and discovered the bar was RED. Shit.
I quickly turned it off and then went to bed.
After that, I opened the casing and wiped away a few years worth of dust and dirt. I rebooted the system and checked BIOS. The temp was steadily increasing beyond 55 degrees Celsius.
I know now that the limit would be 65 degrees, making allowances for Malaysia's hot temperature and high humidity.
I made some phone calls and had a possible diagnosis - the fan wasn't spinning fast enough anymore, or some material at its copper whatever is fucked.
So I took out the fan, rushed to Digital Mall PJ to buy a new fan, and then rushed back home. The whole trip and buying session took 30 minutes or less. All the while, I was yelling "Sandyyyy! Sandyyyyy!" like a character from a rom-com movie.
I replaced the fan and then saw the temperature hovering at a stable 51 degrees. Phew.
I love my PCs. They have served me better than any human.
All started in the early '90s with my brother's 486 machine.In 1996, my father bought a Pentium-S PC. It was the first Pentium 100MHz chip, overclocked to 133MHz. Hence, Pentium-S.
My own PC was a Pentium III machine. 833MHz, with 128MB RAM. Then moved to AMD dual-core. The AMD machine gave me loads of problems. Then I made the switch to Sandy Bridge and so far have been extremely satisfied with the performance of the hardware as well as Windows 7.
The fuck am doing? I need to go and finish that novel.
Decade of Decadence: The 10 Year Anniversary Series
They say that an empty vessel makes the most noise. And that people who know little, will crow about what little they know.
I am that empty vessel, so hear me crow and shit.
May 15th will mark the 10 year anniversary I have been in the media. Until that date, sans a few days when I go home to vote and my 4-day vacation in Thailand - partly to celebrate my 10th year anniversary - I will fill this blog on what little I know this past decade.
I came to KL in 1998, to enrol in UM. I chose UM because I took SPM - and scored like crazy - during the global economic recession. I got an aggregate of 8 and where my seniors managed to land scholarships to Europe and the US at 18 aggregates (the lower the number, the better), my superior results got me nowhere. There was no money to send an unconnected son of a teacher to any of the western countries.
Yes, we are related to some powerful people, but my family has an arrogance and stubbornness which sometimes frustrate even me.
I was stuck here. So I applied to the one university WITHOUT a dress code - UM. I did not choose it for its superior academic whatever or its location. I knew ITM required shirts, tie and black shoes for their matriculation students, same goes with UTM, UPM, USM, UKM and whatever else.
I had just spent the previous five years wearing a stupid fucking tie every day except Sunday and a formal Baju Melayu every Friday. I mean, fuck you. I wasn't going to wear a tie or iron my clothes.
I asked around, and UM was the only university that allowed me to go to lectures wearing sandals, flip-flops or whatever. I also went to class wearing shorts at one point, but the predominantly Mohammadean community started laughing and admiring my fair thighs.
So there I was, alone and not rich, in the capital, armed only with my wit, and my will.
I spent five long fucking years eating roti canai and - for the occasional treat - Maggi goreng. I hear lots of Chinese students want to get into UM and I was like, "What the fuck for?" I gained countless kilos from eating whatever cheapest food I could find. Really cheap shit. I bought the occasional snack based on weight.
Loaded on carbs all day, every day. It wasn't by choice. I discovered then that my family was poor. They couldn't afford my education.
I don't hold it against them. They did their best, and I played whatever hand I was dealt to the best of my abilities.
Life in UM was one of survival. I needed enough food to keep me going. It felt like living in the jungle.
I had a budget of RM6 for food every day. This meant either RM3 for lunch or RM2.50 and the rest for dinner. Breakfast was an occasional dream.
I watched as the rich kids threw their money away on expensive food and unnecessary stuff. Some of them even drank or partied. There was no party for me. There was only survival.
I stayed at one point, at a 900sqft apartment with nine other students. Nine fucking students. Some of them drug dealers and one was a thief. The rich kids would get the 3-4 bedroom 1440 sqft apartments and have a room all to themselves. Three people in an apartment - my mind boggled at the thought.
I made some friends, and with their help - logistics, mainly, cause I had no transportation the first few years I was there - I also landed typing jobs due to my proficiency with languages.
They paid McDonald's wages, which was RM3.50-RM4 per hour at the time. We prayed in the meeting room. Oh, I prayed five times a day back then. Every day, five times, I would get down on my knees, place my head on the ground and thank God for my life.
Cause you know why? Other people had - and are having it worse.
I grew up in the swamp, motherfucker! My neighbours were and are worse off. They make a few hundred bucks a month to feed families of eight or more. In the best of times, when rubber prices go up, they can make maybe up to RM3,000 a month. Imagine eight people having that amount to survive in the modern world.
Look at their food, man. One of my neighbours buy tiny day-old shrimp - the cheapest shit they could find - and make what is sold in La Bodega as gambas paco alcalde - shrimp in a red sauce, but with more chilli instead of tomato.
They cook the thing, and all you could see on the dish was a red paste. The shrimp were tiny and they were very few - too few to feed eight people, or more.
My parents often told me of the kind of food they had to eat back in World War II - the skin of bananas, soft barks of certain trees, mushrooms. The kind of shit these people eat are just one level up.
I usually shop for clothes every five years. Means everything I buy must at least last five years. I scoured shopping malls and bundle sales, looking for quality. I recommend LL Bean which I bought at FOS for RM12 as it is outdoor wear, but tailored to be office wear. The quality of the material is outstanding.
I still have those shirts. I still have my jeans from when I was 17, patched up and now disintegrated from constant washing.
Now, I'm an old man, and I see kids nowadays wasting all the opportunities and convenience which they have taken for granted, as I am sure the previous generation saw mine do the same, with our fancy RM2.50 meals.
So the election is coming up, and the current Government is saying they did good on all fronts. I do not deny they have tried, and some of the initiatives bore more fruit than others.
However, to say that life in Malaysia is easy, or even that we have enough food for everyone - I cannot say that. At the very least, tell it to the hardcore poor.
I am that empty vessel, so hear me crow and shit.
May 15th will mark the 10 year anniversary I have been in the media. Until that date, sans a few days when I go home to vote and my 4-day vacation in Thailand - partly to celebrate my 10th year anniversary - I will fill this blog on what little I know this past decade.
I came to KL in 1998, to enrol in UM. I chose UM because I took SPM - and scored like crazy - during the global economic recession. I got an aggregate of 8 and where my seniors managed to land scholarships to Europe and the US at 18 aggregates (the lower the number, the better), my superior results got me nowhere. There was no money to send an unconnected son of a teacher to any of the western countries.
Yes, we are related to some powerful people, but my family has an arrogance and stubbornness which sometimes frustrate even me.
I was stuck here. So I applied to the one university WITHOUT a dress code - UM. I did not choose it for its superior academic whatever or its location. I knew ITM required shirts, tie and black shoes for their matriculation students, same goes with UTM, UPM, USM, UKM and whatever else.
I had just spent the previous five years wearing a stupid fucking tie every day except Sunday and a formal Baju Melayu every Friday. I mean, fuck you. I wasn't going to wear a tie or iron my clothes.
I asked around, and UM was the only university that allowed me to go to lectures wearing sandals, flip-flops or whatever. I also went to class wearing shorts at one point, but the predominantly Mohammadean community started laughing and admiring my fair thighs.
So there I was, alone and not rich, in the capital, armed only with my wit, and my will.
I spent five long fucking years eating roti canai and - for the occasional treat - Maggi goreng. I hear lots of Chinese students want to get into UM and I was like, "What the fuck for?" I gained countless kilos from eating whatever cheapest food I could find. Really cheap shit. I bought the occasional snack based on weight.
Loaded on carbs all day, every day. It wasn't by choice. I discovered then that my family was poor. They couldn't afford my education.
I don't hold it against them. They did their best, and I played whatever hand I was dealt to the best of my abilities.
Life in UM was one of survival. I needed enough food to keep me going. It felt like living in the jungle.
I had a budget of RM6 for food every day. This meant either RM3 for lunch or RM2.50 and the rest for dinner. Breakfast was an occasional dream.
I watched as the rich kids threw their money away on expensive food and unnecessary stuff. Some of them even drank or partied. There was no party for me. There was only survival.
I stayed at one point, at a 900sqft apartment with nine other students. Nine fucking students. Some of them drug dealers and one was a thief. The rich kids would get the 3-4 bedroom 1440 sqft apartments and have a room all to themselves. Three people in an apartment - my mind boggled at the thought.
I made some friends, and with their help - logistics, mainly, cause I had no transportation the first few years I was there - I also landed typing jobs due to my proficiency with languages.
They paid McDonald's wages, which was RM3.50-RM4 per hour at the time. We prayed in the meeting room. Oh, I prayed five times a day back then. Every day, five times, I would get down on my knees, place my head on the ground and thank God for my life.
Cause you know why? Other people had - and are having it worse.
I grew up in the swamp, motherfucker! My neighbours were and are worse off. They make a few hundred bucks a month to feed families of eight or more. In the best of times, when rubber prices go up, they can make maybe up to RM3,000 a month. Imagine eight people having that amount to survive in the modern world.
Look at their food, man. One of my neighbours buy tiny day-old shrimp - the cheapest shit they could find - and make what is sold in La Bodega as gambas paco alcalde - shrimp in a red sauce, but with more chilli instead of tomato.
They cook the thing, and all you could see on the dish was a red paste. The shrimp were tiny and they were very few - too few to feed eight people, or more.
My parents often told me of the kind of food they had to eat back in World War II - the skin of bananas, soft barks of certain trees, mushrooms. The kind of shit these people eat are just one level up.
I usually shop for clothes every five years. Means everything I buy must at least last five years. I scoured shopping malls and bundle sales, looking for quality. I recommend LL Bean which I bought at FOS for RM12 as it is outdoor wear, but tailored to be office wear. The quality of the material is outstanding.
I still have those shirts. I still have my jeans from when I was 17, patched up and now disintegrated from constant washing.
Now, I'm an old man, and I see kids nowadays wasting all the opportunities and convenience which they have taken for granted, as I am sure the previous generation saw mine do the same, with our fancy RM2.50 meals.
So the election is coming up, and the current Government is saying they did good on all fronts. I do not deny they have tried, and some of the initiatives bore more fruit than others.
However, to say that life in Malaysia is easy, or even that we have enough food for everyone - I cannot say that. At the very least, tell it to the hardcore poor.
Run, Amir, Run
I was lying on my bed, feeling good about myself.
Tonight, I watched the Dakota Fanning rape movie - Hounddog - and also rewatched an episode of Aoi Bungaku - animated adaptation of Japan's greatest literary works.
One of the stories was Osamu Dazai's Run, Melos, Run. I am extremely fond of this adaptation, particularly one scene.
First, the story is about a writer tasked with adapting a Greek myth into a stage play. However, he stumbled upon a block as the story shares some similarities with his own life story. The question posed by Osamu Dazai was, "Is it more painful to wait for someone, or to make others wait?"
The story has flashbacks to the writer's old life, and flash forwards to the play being staged - probably just in the writer's mind.
My favourite scene was writing the sequence when Melos was fighting to get back to a castle, and as the writer wrote it, each stroke of his brush corresponded to a slash, thrust or parry of Melos' blade. The narrative flashes back to the writer's original story, and then flash forwards to the play being acted on stage.
Then the characters from the stage play spills over to the writer's desk and start fighting there.
Writers are a masturbatory bunch. We're wankers, mostly. But that effect, multiple threads happening all at once, with the same theme, creating an extremely powerful resonance, can only be achieved using animation.
It reminds me of an episode of Kino's Journey. The first one, I think, about three old men on the rails. It was punctuated with Kino's story about a land where no one had to work.
This one had a simple resonance, but Kino's Journey has always been about asking question to the reader/viewer.
These are the type of stuff I want to write, and I hope I will have enough resources to do so, before I die.
Tonight, I managed to write 3,431 words of my novel. Progress has been slower due to me wanting to maintain some form of quality, and of course playing some games. Tomorrow, I will merge that with some earlier stuff I did making a grand total of almost 9,000 words. A bit of writing, and I can reach 10,000 words before my afternoon meeting tomorrow.
If I can achieve 20,000 words by Monday morning, I will be extremely happy.
It is not good to measure progress on how many words one has written. Volume is no guarantee of quality. However, having postponed this project for a long while, I just can't wait to clock some serious word count on it.
And the secret to writing good work, is not to try and write good work. Just write. Like the guy in Melos said - I don't want to read a great novel. I want to read your novel.
That is very wise of Osamu. There is no such thing as the greatest because those are all decided by different people, inside their heads. Blablabla.
Oh well. I should really be getting some sleep.
Tonight, I watched the Dakota Fanning rape movie - Hounddog - and also rewatched an episode of Aoi Bungaku - animated adaptation of Japan's greatest literary works.
One of the stories was Osamu Dazai's Run, Melos, Run. I am extremely fond of this adaptation, particularly one scene.
First, the story is about a writer tasked with adapting a Greek myth into a stage play. However, he stumbled upon a block as the story shares some similarities with his own life story. The question posed by Osamu Dazai was, "Is it more painful to wait for someone, or to make others wait?"
The story has flashbacks to the writer's old life, and flash forwards to the play being staged - probably just in the writer's mind.
My favourite scene was writing the sequence when Melos was fighting to get back to a castle, and as the writer wrote it, each stroke of his brush corresponded to a slash, thrust or parry of Melos' blade. The narrative flashes back to the writer's original story, and then flash forwards to the play being acted on stage.
Then the characters from the stage play spills over to the writer's desk and start fighting there.
Writers are a masturbatory bunch. We're wankers, mostly. But that effect, multiple threads happening all at once, with the same theme, creating an extremely powerful resonance, can only be achieved using animation.
It reminds me of an episode of Kino's Journey. The first one, I think, about three old men on the rails. It was punctuated with Kino's story about a land where no one had to work.
This one had a simple resonance, but Kino's Journey has always been about asking question to the reader/viewer.
These are the type of stuff I want to write, and I hope I will have enough resources to do so, before I die.
Tonight, I managed to write 3,431 words of my novel. Progress has been slower due to me wanting to maintain some form of quality, and of course playing some games. Tomorrow, I will merge that with some earlier stuff I did making a grand total of almost 9,000 words. A bit of writing, and I can reach 10,000 words before my afternoon meeting tomorrow.
If I can achieve 20,000 words by Monday morning, I will be extremely happy.
It is not good to measure progress on how many words one has written. Volume is no guarantee of quality. However, having postponed this project for a long while, I just can't wait to clock some serious word count on it.
And the secret to writing good work, is not to try and write good work. Just write. Like the guy in Melos said - I don't want to read a great novel. I want to read your novel.
That is very wise of Osamu. There is no such thing as the greatest because those are all decided by different people, inside their heads. Blablabla.
Oh well. I should really be getting some sleep.
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